1. why is it that people just don't apreciate what you do for them?
2. why they build up walls around themselves when you are trying to help?
3. instead of thinking that you cannot do it. why don't you think in a way that you will do it the best that you can?
4. why pesssimist just can't think optimistically? even when there a friend there to help you and spur you on?
5. why is it that the way people think that when someone doing something good to you it's like they must be all out to harm/cheat you?

why? Why? wHY? WHY?

i'm like feeling funny. as in. how can i describe my feeling now? er. hmmm. well, i'm trying my best to help this friend of mine to go back to the original her. but. somehow she just don't express how she feels to me as openly as we had in the past. a feeling of dissapointment overwhelmed her. and because of our busy schedule our friendship distanced away. oh well. i'm trying to be in touch with her and things like that but she just feel so reluctant. in a way i knew her reluctantness. how can i help??? i had already squeeze out my time for you! as in i placed you into my schedule. argh! it's alright.
i'm just speechless for a moment. and for the next moment. i just felt that i should should not give up! especially she's a dear friend of mine! nothing is going to let you lose the trust!!! no!!! not even in me!!!!
well. you know what! if you ever encounter this. don't lose heart yeah=) come and talk to me. because i believe one day whatever i do. the dear friend of yours will greatly appreciate you! really!

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